Hearsay and Backstabbers18:38 May 28 2006
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Recently I have been a victim of hearsay and a backstabbing friend. Hence why I haven't written in my Journal for awhile. It was real personnel and continues to give me trouble to this day, even though this all happen about a month ago.
I consider myself a good friend. Someone that listens, trys to help and able to say the right things that people need to hear. My empathy gift helps out with this but to find out that hearsay has made me out to be a vindictive, manipulative, threatening, bully of a bitch...truthfully it had me floored. One friend told me, "knowing you for 5 minutes, everyone can tell that you aren't capable of those qualities". I hope so.
Thing that made me mad, is that I was tried and convicted of these things, due to hearsay. There was no investigation, no questioning of named parties.
I am not perfect. I was angry about something, about how it was handled. You know how it is, initial reaction. I vented to some people and not the one I was angry at. My Bad. I have apologized for that. Yet we all have bad days and make bad choices. Well, to make a long story short, I vented to someone I thought I could trust and they backstabbed me. Causing even more trouble.
This has caused me to leave my coven of old for a new beginning. Yet my trouble is the 15 to 20 some odd coven members still consider me a close friend. They tell me of all the trouble in my old coven. I understand that I am a good listener and try to be a good friend but it tears at me sometimes.
I will say this. From all the gossip and stories I am getting from my friends, I realized that I was played. That I was backstabbed by someone with an agenda. Both me and the person I was angry at, were played. I have lost countless friends over this and thought I had put it behind me. Yet someone keeps stirring the pot.
No matter what, I can’t go back to the old coven and yet, I yearn to help settle the dissention that I have heard about. Sorry that is me, miss fix it. The diplomat. What am I to do? Basically, I have decided on a couple things. First, during this I found out who my true friends are, who even now are supportive of me. Secondly, I can’t and won’t be dragged into having an opinion about my old coven. I have to put it behind me, no matter how much it still hurts to be labeled like that.
I take comfort in my friends on here. Those that said that they love me, that I am special and that are waiting for me to make my own coven. LOL. Thanks guys and gals, I appreciate it.
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shadowofmystry
19:44 May 13 2008
Is everything ok now??